what is real

June 4th- Not exactly the day to pop champagne.

I don't want to feel like this, really. It's the feeling of urge but bounded AT THE SAME TIME. Can't I just do whatever I want to do and not be judged with what I do? Can't I can't I?

I'm switching to livejournal.

How do you call this.. This feeling?

Right. this girl-you're-so-fucked-up-thanks-to-mr.douchebag?

It's called affection, smarty pants.

I took this picture few years back. And it still never fails to tell me why I love photography so much.
I think it was on Valentine's day that I was given this rose. I mean yah which senstitive and nice person would randomly give people roses on any other odd day? then obviously the rose was dying and all, so I took a snapshot of it and.. this rose has been with me ever since?
Okay I'm going to print this out. You know what? I'm going to print alll my good photos out and paste it on my wall!
Then mumsie and daddykins would think
"yeahhh, mavis really likes photography! let's buy her a DSLR!"

How does that sounds?? HAHA.
Either that,
they might just probably yell to me about how will my photos spoil the wall paint. :/

I really could use some extra cash now.
Date with ballet girlfriends t'day! Can't wait can't wait!

It is so awesome 'cuz though we don't have lessons anymore, we're stilling hanging out like the usual (:

YESSSS MY BLUEBLACK IN MY TOE IS MOVING!

so it's ob-ve-ious-lee

have you been free lately?

because i think i need to borrow some time.

Many a times I have told myself,

"choose the boy right, choose the boy right."

but love, you just write such pretty words, i just can't help but get drawn into you.

Love's an excuse to get hurt,

and to hurt.

Do you like to hurt?

"I do"

Then hurt me.

Life can't be just full of fondant pastries and croissants.

There are instances when you just keep falling and falling and falling.

I especially hate this incessant feeling of fall. You know that it would keep going and no one would be down at the floor holding up his hands ready to catch you safely.

I always thought that once you be nice, good things would come to you, you will meet good friends. I always thought that way.

So, I came out of that fucking mean shell inside me and tried to be nice to everyone. I guess it didn't really work to my favour.

You, can be so.. frustrating you know? I tried being nice, tried getting on the neutral side. But did you see this? Did you see all these shit? Hell no.

What did you do instead? Roll your fuckin' eyes at me? Roll?

Nah, rolling your eyes at me ain't that much of a big thing.

Thinking that you were my friend WAS.

To think I thought that you were a little insecure and would never ever try to gossip about people because you know how it feels. NO SHIT, YOU HAVE NOT LEARNT YOUR LESSON.

But, I really got to thank you. A lot. Now I know who are my FRIENDS and who aren't. I'm not going to entertain you and your funny little tricks up against me anymore because once you hit me again once more,

my strings would break and i'd not be very nice after all.

And dear, that doesn't seem so far from now.

NOT.VERY.FAR.

un-frog-ettable

25th may (tues):

went out with sabby, ed and huiling for lunch. Ohhh it was a bad face day 'cuz monday I had facial so my face was all red and tomato-ish.

Wind Shadow was the MOST boring dance ever. First dance performance which I SLEPT.

The thing is, I love dance. And imagine how boring it was when a dance lover sleeps during a dance performance. Okay, i just cannot appreciate such abstract performances.

To complicated for my human mind.

At first i was like "what?" then i was like "uhh..." then i went to "zzzz"

THAT BAD.

the most forward looking was the aftermath, when all of us went to eat!

26th may (wed):

had phototaking in school! I really hope, cross my fingers my face is not BAD in the photos. hahahah.

dance.

dindin with family at orchard.

damn funny desmond was sleeping and debs shocked him.

LOOK AT HIS EPIC FACE. haha.

dance mates gave a birthday cake!! damn cute damn cute! I couldn't bear to eat it!

but.. i did in the end. (:

we went to this steamboat place cuz mumsie had reallllly bad cough.

so yeah. soup-ish place!

awww i love my parents :)

You took me for granted. :(

28th may(friday):

awesome clique celebrated my birthday! loved it loved it!

OMG okay they made me this board, which has a picture of me and MY UGLY DOUBLE CHIN!

hahahha! don't judge me.

so! they made me walk around (IN MY HEELS) marina sqaure and ask random people to sign on my board! HAHAHAHA. Okay one of those people is this guy: quite hot (:

good times good times (:

dindin at NYNY

happy birthday, mavis.

you're lucky to have friends like these.

29th may (sat):

DANCE AT BUKIT TIMAH!

and yes! I finally found Hatched! 'am so going to eat there with my dance peeps soon! HAHAHAHA.

Then after dance, went out with max!

ahh... overall? This week was good... very good.

(:

Thank you God! for everything! amen.

midnight seventeen

out with shiqi to stalk her LZX. hahaha.

4 fingers was good! though i ate the fries only.

we were damn damn far away from him but i still managed to take a noisy photo of him! (: blur but, still fits.

shiqi was asking the waiter:

"how big do you think my boobs are?"

which explains her right hand's action.

epic.

OMG. this is weird/ticklish/a good experience/just weird

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASSY! :D

we surprised her at midnight and she was SHOCKED, like literally. (: It feels good, seeing your best friend happy. It'll somehow make you happy as well. Auntie managed to convince daddykins to allow me to stayover at Jassy's place! :D BEST NIGHT EVER.

JAS, I hope you had a great time last night! ILUBCHEWS DEEP DEEP!

yesterday was a veh good day, 'cuz i spent the whole day with my 2 best friends. (:

okaybye.